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im wrtting this blogg from my cell....so the style maybe alittle different...... ive been called into work....but i cant stand that i even agreed to go. im hating my situation ......i want to do something better than this. however no matter how many times i can dream reality seems to collapse anything i have hyped up in my head. the reality is i am a free lance artist no schooling or degree will get me further because i am not meant for any disctatorship of a career. im not meant to be in a beaucratic system made to clock you in and out and give you secheduled breaks.....im a rebel in so many words that is destined for the open road. i know it sounds like a cop out.....or even more so i sound like a fuckin bumb..... i see myself making my own time....my own rules my own money my own art. lol yeah im the struggling artist living off my parents working at pizza hut waiting for my big break. Im a lonely creature with all the desire to be with my soulmate with 2.5 children and a nice little house sitting pretty. Im 24 so i got some time but nonetheless....in some peoples eyes too old to dream..... people my age have moved out of the nest have a wonderful career and are on their way to starting their new life with that special someone......not me though......im broke ....artisticly strained and lacking.....and sexually intamitely lonely.....but wat do i hear.....keep trying find another job.....go go go go....GO!!!!!! truth is i have no desire to. i feel like i can get what i want and do it my way.... as painful lonely and long this road may be im gonna get wat i want.......