Referbished

So this blogg is really only a simple release. I have been caught up in some type of time machine. Everything seems to be going well; taking small steps to make my near future concrete and established. However it seems that i still havent attained a sense of voice. I feel as though no matter who or what pushes me to become a better more confident person is only temporary. Its horrifing to realize that ones hard work can be trambled into dust just by anothers words or actions towards you or perhaps the realizing that your hard work hasnt shown any results. Ah yes im sorry to say maybe the saying is true ; you cant really change a person; moreover can one really change himself? I have yet to find out that answer. Is it about will power? Is it about how much support you have? I have no clue. However for now the answer that lays before me is unknown. For now i look at this idea of change as more of an adaptation or an evolution of oneself. Sadly do your so-called bad habits or undesired characteristics still remain deep down inseide? I dont know. I dont think i can even give advice to someone when it comes to this subject. does anyone out ther have any answer for me? Or but wait i must be asking to much.........